I realize it's past New Years

So I was sitting in church today.. after sacrament.. after everyone had left the chapel.. and I was reading this month's Ensign. And can I just tell you that those magazines are pretty much little personal revelations all tied up with a pretty little bow and delivered straight to your door.. because as I was reading I realized that each article was an answer to something that I had been praying for, even if I didn't realize that's what I'd been praying for.. does that make sense?

So I decided to make some middle of the year resolutions. To kind of 'turn over a new leaf' and recommit to some things.. and try to develop some new habits. So here it is.. the things I'm going to try and accomplish.. not just for this year but hopefully forever.

• Be cleaner - I need to keep my spaces clean and think.. what if Jesus were to walk into my room right now, would I be embarassed? Or what if I were to see the prophet today, would I be embarassed about how I looked or dressed, or the fact that I haven't showered in a week? I need to be cleaner.




• Filter my thoughts more - I need to focus on thinking positively about myself especially and others. Forward thinking results in forward actions.




• Be more frugal - granted I am already pretty frugal but that's mostly forced frugality because of my lack of income. But I do need to work on taking better care of my things so they last longer, and not making rash decisions when it comes to spending. Gordon B. Hinckley said "Fix it up, wear it out, make it do, or do without" A motto to live by.




• Become more cultured - there are plenty of rough, edgy, 'cool' girls out there that I don't really need to try to be one. I do realize that I'm naturally not any of those things but at times in my life I've kind of wanted to be that totally tough girl. I decided today that those things are not what I want to be anymore. I need to focus on becoming more refined, becoming more kind and gentle, educated and thoughtful. There aren't enough women out there like that, and that's what I want to be.




• Remember - the most important word in the dictionary according to my beloved seminary teacher Brother Saunders. It's easy to forget why I'm here, where my goals should be, and what I should be doing to reach those goals. But I'm going to recommit to remembering. Everything I have is given to me, the Lord doesn't owe me anything, I am loved, and there is always someone there for me that knows the bigger picture, I need to have more faith, hope, and charity. Remember more

So.. those are my middle of the year resolutions. One little step at a time hopefully someday I'll be able to accomplish all of these things and become a better person.