Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Strip Me

Every day I fight for all my future somethings, a thousand little wars I have to choose between. I could spend a lifetime earning things that I don't need, but that's like chasing rainbows and coming home empty.

And if you strip me, strip it all away. If you strip me, what would you find? If you strip me, strip it all away.. I'll be alright. Take what you want. Steal my pride. Build me up or cut me down to size. Shut me out, but I'll just scream. I'm only one voice in a million but you ain't taking that from me.

I don't need a microphone to say what I've been thinking. My heart is like a loudspeaker that's always on eleven. Cuz when it all boils down at the end of the day, it's what you do and say that makes you who you are. Think about it. Doesn't it? Sometimes all it takes is one voice.

-Strip Me by Natasha Bedingfield

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

I've Decided

It feels good. And although there are still many things unknown, I'm finally headed in the right direction. And after all.. it doesn't matter where you are on your path.. but which way you're pointing. I haven't felt this good in a long time. As a firm believe in new year's resolutions I'm looking forward to January 1st, and I'm going to make the year 2011 a year to remember.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Corners, Window Panes, and Lightbulbs

You know things are getting bad when you find yourself sitting, parked in your driveway, rain beating it's tiny fists on your window, listening intently and momentarily seriously considering the National Guard.

Glad I snapped out of that one.

So recently, I had a wonderful friend advise me to find one thing each day that made me happy and to call upon that one thing whenever I began to feel my spirits fall.

Let me back up. This month in particular has been exceptionally difficult. And last night may have been the crowning glory of all my misery. So I knelt down, and prayed that I would have the strength to get through tomorrow.. please please just give me strength. Then I literally crawled into bed and closed my eyes tight hoping for some peace and solitude in sleep. Thinking that maybe a good night's rest would be the cure.

I woke slowly this morning, drifting to and from. And somewhere in the in between of to and from, I heard a bird. A bird just singing his little heart out. Whistling and warbling. And as the the little melody tumbled from this little bird I realized that this.. made me happy. This bird in the middle of the pouring rain, was singing. The strength that I needed, the happiness that I desired to feel.. came from the smallest of places.

Things are looking up.

God loves me.

Monday, December 6, 2010


There are few things that fall into your life as perfectly as these have.

Slow Goodbye by Lesley Roy
I'm Gone I'm Going also by Lesley Roy (she's incredible)
Gravity by Sara Bareilles
Go by Boys Like Girls
Starts With Goodbye by Carrie Underwood
Wishes by Superchick
Let Go by Frou Frou

I know the last two are a repeat from my last post but they are just too perfect to leave out of this list.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Let Go

Two things:

Let Go by Frou Frou
Wishes by Superchick

They say everything I can't.