Friday, December 25, 2009

Life List

She's my best friend in the whole wide world...
It has been said that...
"A friend is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words"

That's Laura.
I don't know if everyone is so blessed to have such an amazing person in their life... but I wouldn't change a thing.
She knows me, and she believes in my dreams.
I love her...a lot.

For Christmas this year Laura gave me a book called "Dream It. List It. Do It!" I could not have received a better gift. Here's how it works...
There are 43 sections each with a goal... For example, the first 3 sections are titled.. "Understand Myself" "Learn New Things" and "Be More Adventurous" etc.. Within each of these sections are numerous "To Do Lists" that will help you accomplish the overall goal.
Pretty cool right?
According to the introduction in this book, One of the ways to achieve the items on a To Do List, is to document the journey. Another important tool is to give yourself a time limit.
In light of the new year, and this amazing book. I have decided to work my way through the book :)

To begin. I have chosen the first "to do" item in the first section.
Section: Understand Myself
To Do: Admit when I'm lying to myself
Time Limit: 2 weeks

Here goes :)

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Answer Me This

It is an interesting thing...
Wanting to change your of your personality...and the assembly of fragments that compose the way you think...
I'm learning.
There are things that you can change and things that you can only learn how to deal with.
I'm a very very long way from the type of person that I want to be.
I want to change by the way I write.
I want to look around and only love what I see.
I want to be well read, educated, intelligent, and smart.
I want to create an impression that doesn't fade.
Doesn't everybody want to be remembered for something?
I want to forget. Leave behind. Put in a box all of my regrets.
I don't want to regret.
I want to do everything.
I don't ever want to wish that I would have...

I'm torn between what's realistic and responsible...and what makes me feel right.
Is there a right way?
When do you stop doing it your parents way and find your own way? Is that okay?
Do you ever stop needing their approval?

How do I change?
Will I ever find my 'niche' in this world?
Do those even exist?
Why is it so hard to make decisions?
I want to change...

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

you hit the nail right on the head

"You're one confused girl...and you're one confusing girl" he said

Boy, doesn't that just say it all...

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Since I've Been Away

It's been quite awhile since I've posted... Not for lack of creative inspiration, I've just been experiencing some pretty crazy things these past few weeks. Learning, growing, thinking...Sometimes when you think life couldn't possibly become more complicated, it takes it as a challenge and definitely does.
I met someone. And this someone will be one of those people. One of those people that later in life I'll look back and mark it as a turning point. Some people judged us...some people made false assumptions... and some people were jealous...and maybe it wasn't the most right, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm not sure if whatever we are is over.. or if there's more for me to learn.
One thing someone did for me was introduce me to the John Butler Trio. I love how music finds you when you most need it. "Betterman" means something to me.
Now typical man
I am because you think
I want my cake and eat it too
Cos I say I can't be in no relationship
But I still feel for you
Cos you are the greatest woman
This old man has ever met
You taught me about my soul
You shared with me your magic
Don't want to be a thorn in your side
Good woman
Always be the one
To make you cry
Don't wanna be that guy
Good woman
Cos you deserve everything
And I got nothing so leave me
And I'll go away
Better off I stay
Far from you you you you you
Cause you are beautiful
That's my story.