Monday, April 30, 2012


Goodbyes have never been especially difficult for me. I have always thought that there's no use being sad over what's left behind, because there are always more exciting things ahead. I don't cry, and I always sort of wonder at people who do. Goodbyes have been easy for me.

Except for this goodbye. This one has been extraordinarily sad. And I'm not quite sure how to handle it.

I'm crying, and I can't even stop. Maybe it's because this thing we had was just getting started and I'm not ready to let go, or maybe it's because I've become comfortable and this change seems a little scary. I'm not the type to be scared of the unknown but to be honest, I'm a little nervous.

I've come to depend on you, and knowing that you won't be there and that we might never have these moments again is terrifyingly heart-breaking. I know I'll be fine, and maybe I'm a little over dramatic but I'm going to feel this ache and hold it for tonight, so that tomorrow I can remember all the good we had. I'll miss you.. like crazy.

Sunday, April 15, 2012

"It is not true we only have one life to love, if we can read, we can live as many lives and as many kinds of lives as we wish"
-S.I. Hayakawa

" To acquire the habit of reading is to construct for yourself a refuge from almost all of the miseries of life"
-William Somerset Maugham

" If you love two people at the same time, choose the second one. Because if you really loved the first one, you wouldn't have fallen for the second."
-Johnny Depp

Friday, April 13, 2012

And just like many times before I can let you go and move on. Remember my old dreams and move towards them alone. And while I do love you, love you with an ache that pulls me towards you in the toughest times, I know in the deepest part of my heart that these are fleeting moments. Moments that are beautiful and healing but that are not meant to last. And of all the things I've learned the most important is to trust myself. So I must let you go now. Find your own dreams but don't forget that I so deeply wanted you to be a part of mine. You have a beautiful heart and a quick mind, perfect humor and a gentle touch. So we will part and I will smile, because I needed you.. and I think you needed me too.