Monday, April 20, 2009

Roadtrip to Idaho

This weekend was a roadtrip to Idaho.. visited some friends, ate some good food, and all around had a good time. My cousin and I stopped several times along the way to take some random pictures that turned out quite nicely.. more on those later.

So.. my frog Edward died today. I'm not exactly sure how but I have my suspicions. I believe he died from complications of a wound he recieved last night, from one of the plastic pebbles that are on the bottom of the fish bowl.. I believe that one of them rolled onto his foot, pinning him on the bottom of the bowl. After I realized what had happened I let him loose, but it was all downhill from there. :( A tragic ending really...The funeral is going to slightly resemble Bilbo's departure in The Lord of the Rings.. it's being generously planned by my room mates.

The weather has warmed up and I find myself remembering how much I appreciate the sunshine.. it brings to mind the song "oh mr. sun, sun, mr. golden sun please shine down on me" I hope the weather continues to shine.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Just Give It Time

Jon Mclaughlin says it well.

I believe it. But does time heal your wounds? Or do you just get used to the pain so it seems like it's better?

I feel a rainbow coming on. It's a good feeling to be content, I think that I struggle with that feeling though. I always need something else, a change. Whether it's something big like: getting my hair cut.. again, moving out, changing the furniture, or considering switching my major for the thousandth time, or something small like: finding a new favorite song, trying a new recipe, wearing a shirt I haven't worn in a long time, or starting another book. I can't last on content.. and maybe that's a good thing. It's a choice to be happy, and I'm choosing to be happy no matter what. I've had enough of the sad.. although it does make for some killer lyrics.
It's like turning over a new leaf, starting over. I'm gonna be happy. Nobody can change that.

My move out date is drawing ever closer and I'm pretty excited. My new apartment has a pretty sweet set up. Private room and bath, laundry room, and cable!! Such an improvement from my current living situation.

My brain is everywhere. My friends are awesome. I love acting. I need more sleep. I want to play tennis. Cookie dough is a staple food item. "He's Just Not That Into You" was quite entertaining. Summer please come.

"Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass, it's about learning how to dance in the rain"

Friday, April 10, 2009

You Never Know

I'm here!!
And I love it.. She fits right in.. puzzle pieces finally matched after a long seperation. We're gonna write and we're gonna sing, and it's going to be amazing. Just like old times. :D I couldn't be happier. Really..

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Ahh.. I'm exploding

So I bought a new camera charger.. wicked photography here I come :P haha..
I feel like exploding.. did I get time traveled back into my awkward hormonal teenage state or what? I hate the feeling of having a million things to say but not being able to say them to a single person you feel like you need to say them to. I have a million things I want to say... if only it was socially acceptable to say everything on your mind without filtering. Ahh... I gotta go blast some music.. release some of this pent up emotion.
Please let my weekend be enjoyable. Boys ruin everything.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

The very best from moo to you!

I went to Provo for the weekend and spent some time at my aunt and uncle's dairy farm. Cows and mud.. my favorite.

One or the other please..

So I'm beginning to wonder when my life is going to balance out. It seems as though the past 3 years have been so up and down that I have a hard time keeping track. Is it just a phase? Will things turn around and become a little bit more stable?
Another part of me thinks that maybe I enjoy the roller coaster feeling.. the excitement of the ascent.. and the thrill of the fall.. until you hit the bottom, where there's only disappointment and anticipation for the next ride. who knows.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

I love walking in the rain, cause then no one knows i'm crying...

What is crying? A release.. ? Why do we suffer?
Pain..anguish, hurt, wounded, ache, weakened, injured.. Cry..weep, shout, want, need, change, require, instant..Beautiful.
"Tears are the silent language of grief"
"It is such a secret place, the land of tears"
-Antoine de Saint-Exupery

I hurt today.. but it's dull, aching and constant. Not enough to make me cry, but enough to make me want to. Why is that? I don't even remember you..
"The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears"
-John Vance Cheney
Where is my rainbow? I seem to only have clouds..
I confuse myself..

"My life would suck with out you" :D

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Where did Tuesday go?


So I definitely thought that it was Tuesday today... until about 5pm when I was informed that it is in fact Wednesday. And the date being April 1 and all, I got some pretty good april fools jokes. It started with 5 cans of canned veggies in the bottom of my purse, and then progressed to red jellow in the toilet and the seat lined with vaseline, to now our bathroom door is missing. We have no idea who did it. I also had the opportunity to clean my room, which took me the better part of an hour.. why do I let it get so dirty?

I also lost my camera charger, which is making me increasingly panicked. Hopefully I find it, and then I can post some sweet pictures.

I have 2 Betta fish and an African Dwarf Frog that are my pride and joy, I've kept them alive for 2 whole months :) Their names are Olly (he's red) and Tevis (he's purple and peach), and then my frog is Edward (after Twilight). They are currently feasting on bloodworms, which I recently discovered are actually mosquito larvae, way gross, but it makes them happy and keeps them alive.. so do what you've gotta do I guess.

Well it's dinner time, parmesan pasta out of box, cooks in 8 minutes and sits in my stomach for the next 24 hours. I'm watching Chitti Chitti Bang Bang with some friends tonight so I can't make too much of a mess cooking.. Anyway.. the blog will get better I promise..