You Never Know

I'm here!!
And I love it.. She fits right in.. puzzle pieces finally matched after a long seperation. We're gonna write and we're gonna sing, and it's going to be amazing. Just like old times. :D I couldn't be happier. Really..

Ahh.. I'm exploding

So I bought a new camera charger.. wicked photography here I come :P haha..
I feel like exploding.. did I get time traveled back into my awkward hormonal teenage state or what? I hate the feeling of having a million things to say but not being able to say them to a single person you feel like you need to say them to. I have a million things I want to say... if only it was socially acceptable to say everything on your mind without filtering. Ahh... I gotta go blast some music.. release some of this pent up emotion.
Please let my weekend be enjoyable. Boys ruin everything.

The very best from moo to you!

I went to Provo for the weekend and spent some time at my aunt and uncle's dairy farm. Cows and mud.. my favorite.

One or the other please..

So I'm beginning to wonder when my life is going to balance out. It seems as though the past 3 years have been so up and down that I have a hard time keeping track. Is it just a phase? Will things turn around and become a little bit more stable?
Another part of me thinks that maybe I enjoy the roller coaster feeling.. the excitement of the ascent.. and the thrill of the fall.. until you hit the bottom, where there's only disappointment and anticipation for the next ride. who knows.

I love walking in the rain, cause then no one knows i'm crying...

What is crying? A release.. ? Why do we suffer?

Pain..anguish, hurt, wounded, ache, weakened, injured.. Cry..weep, shout, want, need, change, require, instant..Beautiful.

"Tears are the silent language of grief"

-Voltaire

"It is such a secret place, the land of tears"

-Antoine de Saint-Exupery


I hurt today.. but it's dull, aching and constant. Not enough to make me cry, but enough to make me want to. Why is that? I don't even remember you..

"The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears"

-John Vance Cheney

Where is my rainbow? I seem to only have clouds..

I confuse myself..

"My life would suck with out you" :D

Where did Tuesday go?

Wow,

So I definitely thought that it was Tuesday today... until about 5pm when I was informed that it is in fact Wednesday. And the date being April 1 and all, I got some pretty good april fools jokes. It started with 5 cans of canned veggies in the bottom of my purse, and then progressed to red jellow in the toilet and the seat lined with vaseline, to now our bathroom door is missing. We have no idea who did it. I also had the opportunity to clean my room, which took me the better part of an hour.. why do I let it get so dirty?

I also lost my camera charger, which is making me increasingly panicked. Hopefully I find it, and then I can post some sweet pictures.

I have 2 Betta fish and an African Dwarf Frog that are my pride and joy, I've kept them alive for 2 whole months :) Their names are Olly (he's red) and Tevis (he's purple and peach), and then my frog is Edward (after Twilight). They are currently feasting on bloodworms, which I recently discovered are actually mosquito larvae, way gross, but it makes them happy and keeps them alive.. so do what you've gotta do I guess.

Well it's dinner time, parmesan pasta out of box, cooks in 8 minutes and sits in my stomach for the next 24 hours. I'm watching Chitti Chitti Bang Bang with some friends tonight so I can't make too much of a mess cooking.. Anyway.. the blog will get better I promise..